Trust God with Our Future

In this time of recent grief, I have cried out to God, but I am learning not to beg Him only for a respite, although that is my first inclination. This time I have cried out to Him for the strength to believe Him, to know He is good, and does what is good. I have begged Him to let my children see Him as faithful, as enough. I have asked for His hand to be evident in our lives in such a way that the testimony of His goodness reaches others. And I have begged for hope that our family will be reunited.

Yesterday I lay in the yard reading my Bible and praying. I asked God to give me some kind of vision, some kind of word from Him. Strangely I felt as if He said to me, “Do you want a word from me if it is to say your worst fears will be realized? Would you still want to hear from me if it was of more pain?” Then I had to ask Him to hold the future for me, to take care of what I can’t handle, and to let me rest in Him and His goodness, not some promised outcome.

A dear mentor and friend of mine has reminded me how we must pray for things with open hands, saying “not my will but yours.” I want to say, “Not my will but yours as long as yours lines up with mine.” I ask God to let me truly surrender to His will, and I am still scared, even though I know He is good. Even though I know He is always enough. And even though I know He gives beauty for ashes.

Is it the Lord’s good plan “to crush us and cause us grief?” Can something that feels so bad, actually be good?  Could we expect anything less? The great news is, “When we see all that is accomplished by His plan, we will be satisfied.” This is the promise of God in Christ Jesus from Isa. 53. The sacrifice of Christ actually provides redemption for everything that we suffer in this life. He redeems my suffering, making it a beautiful offering of worship to my Creator. And that brings the deepest kind of satisfaction.

5 Responses to "Trust God with Our Future"

  • Ah, the sweetest offerings we can offer our LORD do not come from our abundance, but from our despair.
    Praying for you dear one. May our Good GOD continue to hold you close.

    1 Jessica said this (July 19, 2012 at 8:58 am) Reply

  • Remember the name of your Blog. At present you seem to be in a night peroid where everything is black and scary. But remember, Joy comes in the morning. Know that you are loved and cared for by us and many others. All of our love, Charlie & Cherrie

    2 Charlie said this (July 19, 2012 at 4:55 pm) Reply

  • Tabitha, someone shared Elisabeth Elliot’s post on Facebook, and I thought when I read it that it went along well with this post of yours “The important thing is to receive this moment’s experience with both hands. Don’t waste it. “Wherever you are, be all there,” Jim once wrote. “Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God.”
    Praying that God’s sovereignty comforts you and His faithfulness gives you hope.

    3 elsie12791 said this (July 19, 2012 at 6:36 pm) Reply

  • Praying for grace for the day and peace beyond understanding.

    4 Lori Z said this (July 19, 2012 at 6:46 pm) Reply

  • If you haven’t already Tabitha, journal the things you are thankful for, laying in your yard reading your Bible sounds wonderful and a great place to start. Like Ann Voskamp says in “1000 Gifts”, the height of my joy is dependent on the depth of my thanks. Joy does comes . . .in our thankfulness too. I love you and miss you terribly. Donna

    5 Donna said this (July 22, 2012 at 1:35 pm) Reply

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