The One who Sees Our Tears

Yesterday Roman decided to put up a fuss about something he didn’t want to do and I said to him, “No crying. Suck it up!” My inquisitive little three year old replied, “Mom, what is ‘suck it up’?”  Yea, I guess it’s what we all do a lot of the time when we don’t have time for our real emotions to surface.  And sometimes that is a good thing. I mean really, if we all went around whining like preschoolers, what a miserable life this would be. Often things happen that I don’t like, and I just have to “suck it up” and accept them.

But what happens when this becomes our spiritual MO. Especially when we are disappointed with God. After all, we’re not really supposed to be disappointed with God if we actually trust Him, right? Often when I experience emotions of confusion and sadness about something God has allowed to come into my life, I sternly remind myself that God is sovereign, that He is good, and does only good. These are truths I live by. And it is good to remind myself of them. But when I do not allow myself the freedom to be “real” with God, when I am always “sucking it up”, do I become a faux-Christian, living a life of pseudo joy?
Tonight in our Bible study time, the boys and I read one of my favorite Old Testament stories. Hezekiah, whom the Bible calls Judah’s most faithful king, became deathly ill and God sent Isaiah to tell him that he was going to die. I find Hezekiah’s response riveting. ” WHen Hezekiah heard this, he turned his face to the wall and prayed to the Lord. ‘Remember O Lord, how I have always been faithful to you and have served you single-mindedly always doing what pleases you.’ Then he broke down and wept bitterly.” (2 Kings 20:2-3) The Bible records for us in 2 Kings 18, that Hezekiah did indeed follow God whole- heartedly his whole life. Hezekiah wasn’t boasting when he reminded the Lord of his faithful life. I am deeply moved by this statement of faith, challenged to assess my own pursuit of God, questioning my own single-mindedness in that pursuit. But I am also moved by Hezehiah’s grief. He wept bitterly! He didn’t ask God to spare his life.  Although clearly that is what he wanted. He just expressed deep sadness and even disappointment to God. He didn’t “suck it up.”

The reason this is one of my favorite stories, is because of verse 4. Before Isaiah had even left the courtyard of the palace, God was sending him back with a new message. “Go back to Hezekiah…tell him, ‘This is what the Lord the God of your ancestor David says: I have heard your prayers and seen your tears. I will heal you…'” God was moved with compassion and added 15 years to Hezekiah’s life in response to his anguished cries. This story reminds me that I can be real with God. I don’t have to “suck it up”, I can weep before God. He is the one who sees my tears! And he responds with compassion and mercy.

One Response to "The One who Sees Our Tears"

  • Thanks Tabitha!! I needed that today. Thanks for your prayers for Kirk.

    1 sue owens said this (September 28, 2011 at 11:29 pm) Reply

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